abortion letter from baby to mommy

We sleep in the same room that night, and the next day he drives me to work. God has a way of pulling us out of any situation and will guide us and provide strength. Now it is 3 months later and I always find myself looking at bassinets and baby items. I realize this is an odd place to share this information, and I am in a much different situation now, but several years ago my partner and I struggled through severe male factor infertility when TTC my youngest. And wham, I unexpectedly end up pregnant, at 41. Two years later in our relationship, he did end up confessing to me that the abortion caused him to resent me. We talk about how we could make it work, but it just doesnt make sense. It also makes me proud to know that I was conceived out of love. Hes verbally abusive, Ive spent all my money on him, no savings, lots of debt he makes the money I just make very little. To this day I cry in memory of the child that could have been. Thank you for this. I know it not quite the same but its just how I feel. The World Health Organization (WHO) estimates that 42 million abortions are induced worldwide each year. Your dad offers to drive me, but I want to listen to music on my headphones. After I check in, I have to take another urine test. Im 21, and I was 7 weeks pregnant last week but decided to terminate, after much deliberation. Im working on it though. Your dad offers to drive me, but I want to listen to music on my headphones. I have a 5 year old and a 1 year old with my husband but prior to that I got pregnant with a guy who I was on and off hanging out with and I decided to do an abortion because I knew he would not be there for me to support me on my decision but to be honest with you I do regret having to abort it. Am i allowed to feel i did it for the baby? I feel like I dont know what to do with myself. There was no internet to look up information, and she didn't know about pregnancy . I always imagine what he or she would have looked like and I feel I failed my child. She wo t talk to anyone as she feels she would be seen as weak. Mothers should never be bored of their children. We just dont know what we actually want, since we decided to not have children. Would the Republican's bill force that teenager to. I thought about how I had just lost my job, just went back to school, was still struggling with grief from a lost loved one and trying to take care of my mom while still trying to learn how to take care of myself. Published by Family Friend Poems November 2008 with permission of the author. More than I want good . Did you end up keeping your baby ? I tell him I dont want an abortion, but nothing about this makes sense. My Unborn Love By Youre still with me, and Im grateful for that too. Gabrielle Kruger I had gone off my birth control a year prior and I didnt get my period for six months; then once I did, they were not predictable: they always came, but my cycle wasnt steady. And way farther along than I thought. I dont understand how someone who has children already, can be so selfish and cold hearted. Your words help. Physically or health wise and its not suppose to be this way. I was 17 yrs old when I got pregnant, At that age I was not ready, alot of expectations from my parents await me plus the fact that I got pregnant by the person I dont love.so Ive decided to abort it by means of massage. I sat on the toilet and watched as my destiny-deciding urine diluted with water, coffee, and last nights wine crept across the screen. My supports at the time were my boyfriend, a few very close friends my age, and my 4 younger siblings (3 were under 6 years old at this time). You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. I am so sorry you had to go through this. I have been looking for support from this side. I dont know what to do, I know exactly how you feel . I think. But I dont want an abortion.. its heartbreaking ? She gave her baby girl up for adoption, and now that baby is an adult. I recently experienced my first pregnancy, at 19 years of age and with four years of nursing school ahead of me. Im sad, but dont regret it. but something I think people needed to read. Im 33. Thank you so much for sharing this. I feel like I have to get the abortion or he will resent me and our relationship will be over. It would have killed me alive to have given birth to those children and given them a life they did not deserve. Im so fearful I dont know what to do. I took away all the vitamins, iron, proteins, calcium and every bit of you in me. That is my story which I have never shared. Yes, Im still pregnant. Its a hard feeling to know that there was energy of ours creating a life for 8 weeks. Putting the baby first. Just like you, I too was in university. Same with me 7 years. Me too, yesterday I found out I was 8 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend also doesnt want to keep it. Colorado. I feel so empty and outright irresponsible. Im 9 weeks, and he pretends like it does not exist. I pray God gives me another chance and send him back to me one day. A local democratic official in Framingham, Massachusetts is under fire for comments made about babies born with . As a minor in highschool who lives with her boyfriend (of 2 years), I had to have a termination back in September after finding out I was pregnant days before the dads birthday (Aug. 28). I m a thai women but I moved to England to live with my husband , he is 34 years old and weve been together nearly 3 years. Can I ask what you ended up doing? It always feels unfair that the times I get pregnant, I had to terminate the pregnancy. I dont know if you have lived in regret or relief of your abortion before this moment, or what feelings his opinions have risen out of you now- all I know is what you decided to do with your pregnancy, whether that involved him ten years ago or not, was your decision. This hurts me down to my soul. Like you, I could not have made a life for my baby at that time. Im going to mourn the abortion. Im seeking a medium to try reach her. I am not in a relationship with the indivdual that I am pregnant with and nor do I want to be as it is a toxic relationship. Anger boils in me now and again over it. Leet had an abortion at age 15 in the early 1980s. I walked back to the preschool where I work with ten minutes to spare and decided, Ill just do it now. God is never bored of you. I was accepted into a Masters program the day before. I loved this poem so much, it made me cry. I now have learnt something new about myself i will absolutely love to be a mother one day. To explain the center's work, Pinson told a story about a girl who showed up with her mom on the morning the Heartbeat Act took effect, asking for an abortion. I had an abortion when I was an illegal immigrant my boyfriend that time wanted me to get an abortion. And sent a special angel to look after me I know that deep down hes right but its tearing me apart. My boyfriend is full of regret and wishes he wouldnt have said hurtful things. I had to. I just wanted to let you know that the decision I made was very painful and still hurts at times but that it does get easier especially if you know you made it for the right reasons. I feel my baby moving around and he doesnt understand what Im going through. I had an abortion many years ago and I was fine with it because I absolutely knew I was in the right place. im 22 years old and just had an abortion over the weekend. This apparently isnt convincing enough, and he asks if Ive taken any more havent I considered it could be a false positive? I too feel like I will regret it if I do this, On the way to the apartment he called and asked if I was hungry. I have too many dreams to fulfill and after the abortion i literally have 200 dollars in my bank account. Im lost and have a follow up appointment in 2 weeks to test my hcg levels by that time is will be 8 weeks almost 9. Its not being selfish if you think about it deeper. I want this baby, but I know financially we wouldnt be able to afford it. I PRAY my baby forgives me for being weak And she comes back to me. He walks into the front room while I am mid-stand, so thats how I greet him. He doesnt know the end result, nor do I feel that he deserves to. I even Bought girl stuff.. in the end I told myself he was right. Im in exactly the same situation as you and just dont know what to do. I was six weeks pregnant . I wish I could advise a podcast or supportive tv bit for her to watch. I am heartbroken. I dont regret it but I do have feeling about what if. Abortions do not occur in this time period, so the phrase is contradictory. Everyday I think about my baby, Im still google searching what the baby would look like at this gestation age, what the baby would be doing. So we did. You deserve the acceptance and tolerance of a choice that is yours and yours only. Im in the beginning of my nursing school. And draw pictures, made especially for you. My room mate and best friend had an abortion two days ago. I already have a little one year old and the thoughts of having to go through it all again, deal with the depression and anxiety that I still havent healed from. Let me tell you some things about me. Immediately after I felt relief that I was not constantly nauseous and I could eat again. And an angel to look after you, too. For the first time in my life. Its a hard decision, Hi there Im in the same situation, dont know what to do Im so sick ? We chose to end our family after two children. I too am going through my second one and I feel absolutely horrible, so I completely understand what you are feeling. My boyfriend and I have been together for 15 years, we have a 9 year old & make about $80K (maybe more) combined income but yet Im contemplating abortion. Im a working fulltime mom Ive always been morally against abortions Ive always advocated against them and here I am having to contemplate one. My boyfriend says I should abort it. I want more than anything to be a mom. It is sad to see children God has made being murdered. I support her no matter what her decision is but ultimately I feel like she is too young to make the rest of her life set and stone. Im 27 years old and he is 32 years old. As opposed to most elective . An Ohio lawmaker proposing a near-total abortion ban was given a hypothetical: A 13-year-old girl is raped and becomes pregnant as a result. I got an abortion two years ago and while I know it was the right decision it is something I still mourn, that was my first and my only as well and this article HITS HOME. I feel like you put my experience and feelings into words. I had my abortion at 5 weeks and 1 day i knew it was the right thing to do but i did want my baby I was scared but overwhelmed i didnt want to go thru what i did i remember a time i was for abortion but until u have to go thru one u have no right to talk i too also got my sonogram which was supposed to be a joyful experience it still was because wow it was beautiful .i love and hope to see my baby one day .. I need advice from someone, anyone. Im at a loss. I was pregnant for the first time when I was 29 years old . There are no words. I m 21 years old and just find out that I m pragnant for 2-3 weeks. I thought the tears would stop but they dont. I wanted to be your everything. I have a toddler and Im pregnant again. I know this choice that I am making will be the hardest but I know in the long run, I will be saving my child from being born into a dysfunction environment I at least owe my child that. The doctor walks in and is quite pregnant. I said this is the hormones speaking and she did the right thing. I always believed that I will meet my angel one day. I like the word dad because Father is in Heaven. I cry also. And understand that by forcing your boyfriend to do something he isnt ready for you may ruin your relationship with him. He keeps trying to make me have the child and give my child full custody and I feel like he wants to rob me because I cant afford to have a child of my own. I just felt I needed more time to see other heart specialist and doctors to figure out what can be done about my heart before I have another child. I remember my boyfriend and I sitting in the car one evening and wondering aloud what it would look like- would it have my eyes, or his nose? You were my everything. I was asked to write this poem by a friend whose niece was distraught because she was pregnant and was addicted to drugs. Mamma you knew when I was placed in your womb. "Everything about a later termination is already so incredibly difficult even just picking up the phone to make the appointment. Hello Mommy, this is me, your baby- So not really any adult guidance, or access to the financial resources parents often avail their young-adult children. This brings me to a previous pregnancy right before this in which I unfortunately miscarried. I really did not want to get rid of my baby and I knew that in my heart, but somehow logic (or what I thought sounded logical) overpowered my emotions. About Press Copyright Contact us Creators Advertise Developers Terms Privacy Policy & Safety How YouTube works Test new features Press Copyright Contact us Creators . My husband and i split up a few months ago but have been seeing eachother on and off during that time. I want to be respectful and listen to people who have been through the same as me. We use protection and still Ive ended up pregnant once more. Im not mad at you anymore. Im broken over this. He would have been 7 and his name was Dyno. Each day, I will continually honor you and thank you for making the sacrifice so I could become a head teacher and get my Masters degree; so your dad could take the steps he needed to stop drinking. We were in this sad nightmare together, weren't we? Top Poems I took the pill at 6 weeks. I'll do my very best to be good. However, reading this, even though it did make me cry, also made me realize I could look at this moment as something to grow from and not just bury it away as a bad memory. Your dad looks at me and then the tests before putting them down, one in my lap and the other in his, but it falls in between us how symbolic. We have only one flight of stairs, but I must have stood and then sat at least twenty times, unsure how to greet him. Sending love your way. He says if i get an abortion we must split that Hell respect my decision but we cannot continue together. 'Dear Mommy' So begins the correspondence from an unborn baby to her mother. I am really struggling with the choice, even though I know it made most sense. I wish I had advice or something magical to say to make everything all betterI dont. I have searching for someone going through what Im going through but I have yet to find it. How I wish I was brave enough to shrugged off the opinion of other people,my friends and family. I have seen God cry when rocking little babies in His big loving arms. I ask for the pill and she hands me it along with a cup of water. I dont know where to go or what to research for. Hes basically ignoring me emotionally but talking to me civil. Dont forget the chips! I waited for him on the couch in our front room, digging my thumb into the ridge of my index finger on both hands. And then I panicked. Im now 11 weeks and as soon as I found out I was pregnant he has gone back to abusing alcohol. Weve trien for 8 yeats now and decided that if I turned 30 which is Dec of this year and I am not pregnant, we will give up. Well, I made it out alive. I have no one I can really talk to about my situation. ????? Unborn Child's letter to Mom !!! Our family was complete. I know Im going to love him when he is here but in the time being I am just purely struggling. It would have been too early to know the sex for sure but when I think of her I feel her and I know she was my baby girl your not alone, whatever you feel, your not alone. Tomorrow I take the pills to expel the tissue. Shes only known her boyfriend for 3 months and now they are contemplating a forever type of future together to raise this child. Abortion pills are the most common way to end a pregnancy in the United States and have become a focus for anti-abortion groups and Republican officials seeking to block access in their states. I just want to be happy with him but its hard when we are on different pages. Im playing the song you listened to sobbing. I feel I will never stop crying and never stop being broken hearted at my loss. Keep the faith, you are not alone . I hope you are healing well and have found happiness in other ways, until one day you and your unborn baby see each other again. I have never cried to hard in my life. I do wish I wouldve had more support during this time, mainly because my husband shut down due to his circumstances, but it has gone to show me just how strong I am and how much stronger I can be. I moved to another state, finished my undergrad (with a newborn) in teaching and even completed grad school also in teaching (with a toddler at the time). I had severe preeclampsia and had to do c-section at week 28. According to Florida's Reducing Fetal and Infant Mortality law, which was implemented last July, abortions are prohibited after 15 weeks of gestation, with a few exceptions, including one that. Im so confused and torn between getting an abortion or keeping the baby. Does anyone else feel similar? Im 22 and I recently went through my 2nd abortion. He estimates that over 500 babies have been saved because of his efforts in utilizing the aforementioned piece. I found out I was pregnant the same day I was supposed to get an IUD inserted. I just keep crying. I felt like he had to know it is his right to know. I prayed on it and as days went on my baby grew inside me but my symptoms from the pregnancy and the disease increased. This was with the same toxic individual that I got pregnant the first time with . I dont want to let you go. But its her decision in the end. I was very helpless. I hope my 2nd child knows I love him or her. Were you touched by this poem? the world makes us feel weak. I feel that it was indeed the best decision for me but Im so emotionally torn that i feel horrible for doing it i was also about 5 weeks . She and her boyfriend are claiming that, if they could go back in time, they would have kept it. Been with him for 5 yrs & hes still married to his first wife and they both share an 8yr old she wont let him see her since she turned 4yrs old but cries about her expressing how much he misses his babygirl. I just him so much (I dreamt he was a boy) I feel like no one understands how I feel and the support I need to great of what other could provide. I promise that the next time I see that little blue plus, the next time you are in the same reality as me, I will be ready for you. I fear that if i leave him he will tell my friends and family. I cant quit my job, but I cant afford 2 in daycare either. My boyfriend was completely supportive of me and even now when I talk about the baby he knows that it makes me feel better. I was rattled with anxiety and guilt and overwhelmed. Ive had 3 surgeries for endometriosis and fibroids. For some reason, Im not moved, but still, I dont want to lose you. I am 6 weeks and already feeling flutters and I feel like I will never get past be this. The way you wrote it felt so close to home for me and i just wanted to say thank-you, thank-you, thank-you. I just turned 21,everyone wants me to keep the baby and I want to be a mom but I dont at the same time. Someone please talk and guide me into a direction. I need to get a surgical abortion on Monday and he cant even decide if he wants to come and support me. I stared and I watched the second line darken and become more prominent. Ill always be one. Don't listen to the voices saying it'll be easier when I'm gone. All the best xxxx, Hi Owami, your message speaks to me because I was completely alone too. We have only been together 8 months though. Although I did it for health reasons I am still recovering. I told him to not come at all and I would be fine. Children need attention so please think about if youre equipped to care for them on your own as a single parent. I feel I would regret it everyday for the rest of my life. And He chose me to teach you about LOVE! Id like to represent other womans stories not only my own, does anyone have any advice or an opinion on the matter? Know the Issues. We had to double down on our declaration our family was complete. She is a lover of writing, hiking, spending as much time outside as possible, and going to concerts. I have images that its the same as trying to kill one of my current children. She is planning to keep the baby because she doesnt think she could handle the depression that would follow an abortion. How do you know? I pull out the test and show him the two pink lines. I couldnt talk to him about keeping it because he would panic and and say it wasnt plausible anytime I showed attachment. I am yet to book the appointment but i know it is the better choice. Because o hate that its a decision. The worse I got the more my boyfriend managed to show up and take care of me. Now, Im regretting every single day of my life. We want to give our child the best life possible, and now is not that time. You'll be grateful in eternity! I swallow hard several times until the pill burrows into the back of my throat like a rock. Exactly a month later I find out Im pregnant again. I know you made the right decision for you! Rapid thoughts flooded my brain. We chose 3 yrs ago to decide to be Childfree. This was so emotional ? We want to expand our family but we werent expecting to do it so soon. I had a disease that I didnt know about that affected the baby because of my bloodstream. God bless . The technician asks me if I want pictures, and I say, I do. When she leaves to print them, I repeat the lyric from Gone and I cry more while holding my stomach. I cry all the time and I dont think Ill ever stop. Now Im thinking an abortion is my only option, I kicked him out last night. I am unable to have children, so I will never know what it feels like, but I share your pain through the experiences of others. How do I pick them? We don't need to live in a big fancy house, Common Mistakes: the word "i" should be capitalized, "u" is not a word, and "im" is spelled "I'm" or "I am". She made the choice within a day, and now she is so upset and emotional and traumatised. I cant be a single baby mama, with two baby daddies. I hope I only delayed meeting my next little one instead of completely losing out on one unique beautiful baby, Thank you for sharing. 13 years later I still cry for my baby. I already felt so attached. I dont want to live in regret of having an abortion. I was wondering how you are feeling. I was diagnosed with a form of heart disease two years ago and the first thing I thought about was how it would affect my life and the babys life. I wasnt going to tell him until I was so far along I could not abort but that sounds crazy. The connection happened from day one. And then I blurt out, without any grace, and much louder than I intend, Im pregnant. His eyes get wide as frisbees and he says, Wait. He tosses me the plastic bag with my burrito and chips (along with several containers of salsa that I didnt ask for but he knows me well enough to bring them anyway), and asks, with little emotion, Whats wrong? I sit down and ask him to sit too, and he does so, across the room. I miss my baby every minute of every day. No baby should be murdered by its mother. Labor would begin, usually within 12 hours, and the baby would be expelled. She had a support network that would have helped and supported her but being very self sufficient wodnt allow her to acknowledge at the time. Then I went into early menopause at 34 and never had kids. And soon I'll get my own fingers and toes. Now he blames himself and cries like me everyday. Our hearts held firm. It is a very hard decision to make thinking about having our fist baby but I have no choice. I was a late-in-life baby, the fourth child born when my mom was 42 in 1959. Considered his feelings but ultimately decided I wasnt going to to do it. What makes us experts in Online Poetry Publishing? And the warmth of the sun on my back. It is a very heartbreak-ling sad feeling. I didn't know you, but I loved you. I have seen many of my patients go through something similar and it is never easy. A boy or a girl? And I was supposedly either unable to conceive or it would be extremely difficult. I will be 37 years old and have had previous abortions but after this miscarriage (I never had one before), fear that I will never conceive again came across me. Cate, I'll be able to hear the sound of your voice. Then, my eyes glued to the test as if it were revealing to me the secrets of the universe, I stared. I feel like its hard to find forums where women arent either all regret or all confidant/fine with their decision. Im 18 and also 6 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend says I have to abort it. You were there, so was my existence. Heartache and emptiness daily. Thank you for sharing. But in reality I know who the dad was because of what had happened on the night we spent together but it did not help my decision as I felt so ashamed. If you can handle a child, have it. This time is different. My boyfriend has two children ages 18 and 13. Im stressed and feel so alone. I had an abortion at 5 weeks 6 days, pill as well. And Im scared because Ive read what an abortion can do or affect my fertility. But I want my baby so bad. I can hardly keep up with what I have now in my life. How first and my first. This poem represents the voice of an unborn child pleading for its life. No matter how he was conceived this baby wasnt a mistake not to me. Struggling with the decision I made. Always imagine what he or she will look like. Some in the anti-abortion movement use the song, or . I hope you are healing well and have found happiness in other areas of life, until you and your unborn baby see each other again. Am I selfish for bringing our baby into this world? I received my bachelors degree in adolescent counselling just last June. He comes at all times of the day we talk all day we talk on the phone all the time I would have never thought. My husband is pretty headstrong about me aborting.. my heart is broken. I had one 7 years ago and my one and only. I never talked to people about it after. Truth is, I have no job, I am back in school with one child taken care of by my parents, I cannot bring another right now and of I did this new opportunity would go away. Sharla Ynostrosa | 01/11/2021. Good luck with that husband. This is just not exactly what I wanted for her and Im scared to lose my best friend in a sense because Im not quite ready to grow up that fast. I feel awful. If you do it, please remember you are not alone and it does get better And remember (if you believe) God will forgive you. My little sister just found out she is pregnant and I am happy for her but I just cant help being sad that I didnt get to know my baby and see him/her grow and I may never get that chance again ( was told it wouldnt be easy to get pregnant to begin with) that baby could very well be my first and only. I know he has to process this but Im in agony and dont want to make a choice based on what he wants. The mother and daughter "were so . The abortion will be via the pill (which I think is an awfully ironic name for it). I recently found out I was pregnant after having a late period. And to be honest, your dad and I werent using protection. I'm growing a little bit every day, And chips. 36 years old and its looking like I wont get another chance. No matter how much support one has, it can so easily feel like you are going through it alone. If you cant, then dont be guilty. I dont blame you for choosing to terminate your pregnancy. He wants me to get an abortion, but I just dont think I can do it. I found this whilst considering abortion. It breaks my heart to know that the only two times Ive been pregnant ended with me terminating. And, I dont know If I ever would have met my husband of now and not really sure of he would stick around with me having a kid from somebody else but regrets are one of the worst thing that you go though when you make a decision like this. What if I was never able to get back on track with school and start my career? I have an ultrasound which tells me you are a five-week-and-two-day-old single embryo. They were in no particular order: I broke up with your dad and essentially kicked him out of our apartment. Sometimes four days late, sometimes ten days you get the idea. Whitney. I dont feel like he was there for me as he should. It's just cruel." When your raised in foster care it is because there is virtually no one else willing or able to care for you as a child. She has told me she regrets her choice to abort the fetus, she has said that many times now. I already have a 1 yr old but im 5 months. But its only 5 weeks so its nothing more then a pack of cells still, right? I took a test when i got home from work and sure enough i was. I am turning 23 in two days, on July 24th funny enough. Maybe they never will. Im afraid that in a few years I wont be able to based on my cervical health. Sending love to all of you going through this situation . I pull out a second test with two pink lines, that I took while on the phone with my sister this time in the apartment, this time repeating different expletives.